So as the title says I’ve been thinking long and hard. I love you but you don’t right. How do I get you to love me why can’t you love me, you love some other chick that is pretty much me but don’t realize that you went from me to the exact same person. So why couldn’t you love me? And why do I give you the time of day when I don’t get nothing from you. I’ve really fucked up. I can’t believe sometimes of how much of a fuck up I am. Well for now I have nothing more to say.. Later!

sometimes we all get the feeling that we are trapped in a light bulb

darksilenceinsuburbia:

Ze Paulo (José Paulo Amorim Reis). Don’t Waste Your Life.

http://www.zepaulocreation.blogspot.com/

violetdreamm:

captured. by yogurt with sprinkles. on Flickr.

jennlove:

The Beauty of Decay by ultradialectics amsterdam on Flickr.

jennlove:

The Beauty of Decay by ultradialectics amsterdam on Flickr.

jennlove:

The Beauty of Decay by ultradialectics amsterdam on Flickr.

So I find out you have moved on. Not only moved on but to someone who treats you just like I did. I would have given you my all not that I hadn’t already but I would have given you more, like I said before I would have run to worlds end to be with you and to be with you. I would have done anything to be with you. But I guess friends is best I can go for the best I can do I would rather be with you than not be with you at all. Worst part is you know how I feel about you and you told me that I would be the first you came back to because you “loved” me. I only wish the best between you and your gal, I hope she can give you things that I couldn’t things that I wish I could have given you. I love you with all of my heart still and always will. I will always tell you that I’m going to be okay that I’m not going to be sad about it because I want to be around you. I only want to see you happy, and I am guessing that you are as happy as can be. I hate that I can’t follow my own advice, but that’s almost everyone that does that. Everyone is there own hypocrite. So I guess I will try and move on but as I say my hopes still stand strong.
-i love you.. Be safe and make every moment count, see you soon Hun.

You were thrown in to a deep dark scary part of the world and you learned how to beg and borrow. But what you didn’t learn is how to love and appreciate the things that are offered in this world. Like when I Gave you my heart you took it and never gave it back you took it and played it and learned how to please it. You could pull any string and I would fall for you, I would do anything to be with you I would run the ends of the earth to make you happy. But instead you just play my heart continuously, and I fall for it. But it’s not your fault it’s mine, I put myself on the line for getting hurt so what the fuck do I do now I still love you but I get nothing I lose you to what nothing absolutely nothing. Mandy maybe but again that is my fault because I let you go out with her all by your self while I sat at home just waiting for you to get home what am I supposed to do I didn’t want to smother you and seem clingy and say I don’t want you hanging out with hot ass girls by yourself or any girl for that matter. I thought I was supposed to be the special girl on your life who always made you happy who could always see that something was wrong. I didn’t want you making evey other girl you knew feel as special I did I wanted to only know that feeling… I hate to love you but I love you with all my heart…

              August 6, 2011

Terra Monroe,

     Well  tonight is one of those nights where you look around and notice how empty your bed is and how you wish someone could be there to hold and comfort you. The only thing is that when your alone you don’t want to sit or lay down in such a big area so you get up and stare at your bed. Your big empty bed and how it could have you and the one you love right there… So what the hell, after minutes and minutes that have passed you have no idea of what to do now so you return to the side of you bed, bury your face into your pillow and think of how no one will ever fill that emptiness, how no one will be there and as well as knowing of how much more time your going to be alone. So to pass the lonley nights we hide our faces from the sick reality and drink tea maybe have a stoge. but you eventually find your own medicine so my hopes still stand strong I will hopefully fiind a way to get you back. I have my weapons i just have to fight now…